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One of those reasons
08/25/04
Let me introduce myself...i'm kheng, and this is my first time writing in.
Nice to meet you all.
I may be a virgin contributor to the cages site, but i am certainly no stranger to it.
In fact, i've enjoyed being very much the voyeur, logging on late at night, reading other people's thoughts, experiences, insights, which working on the cages project.
And all the while, selfishly refusing to share my own thoughts, experiences and insights, adamantly holding on to a bit of privacy, wanting to keep everything to myself. cages has been like a secret
pleasure, and i have not had the need to share my feelings with anyone but myself.
Until now.
I think my disclosure has something to do with my logging onto the cages movie site 15 minutes ago, and actually seeing myself in the photos posted from the first days of shoot.
My god. i'm actually in this movie. my first feature.
There's something romantic and dreamlike about that notion. and believe me, i've tried to fight that off.
I mean, ask graham (with whom i have spent many many happy hours hanging out with!). i'm probably the most practical, straight talking, in your face person you'll meet for awhile. and i actually despise too much sentimentality, romance and other such sorts of soppiness.
And so for the longest time, i've fought off any dreamy notions of what it would be like to be making a feature.
But i'm afraid, i'm throwing in the towel.
I'm giving up, giving in to the womb like attraction of the cages set, and the people who are driving it.
I enjoy them too much - graham, bobby, mark, tania, dickson, rebecca, ken, has, melissa, teresa...and the army of other cages "kaki" (singaporean for "bunch" or "gang"). when the day's filming is over, i find it hard to pick up my bags and leave. i seem to be finding excuses to stay a bit longer.
When i have an off day, i wonder about them, what they're up to, whether or not they day went alright.
In between scenes, i can't pull myself away from my fellow actors. i want to know about them. and for those who come from another country, compare our lives as actors, check their dreams, are they the same as mine? these people that will be playing my father, my son, my lover, my friend...i want to know them, know them well.
I'm hooked.
I don't know what the final product is going to be like. i can only try to find the truth beneath the character i play. and then, i resign myself to the sea of technicalities that is necessary before the film comes alive. i find that immensely scary. i hope to get to a point where the final product is not my major and only concern.
I want to concern myself with enjoyment. of ali, of cages, of the people making it, of things i will feel, and things it will give to and teach me.
I am constantly in search of reasons to share my heart, and a bit of my life. good reasons. worthwhile reasons. meaningful reasons. something tells me cages is going to be one of those reasons.
Tan Kheng Hua
Actress
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